Wednesday, August 27, 2003
Today I went for my MRI scan. Nothing really much to say about…except that it costs a bomb. Have never been for a MRI scan. Its not as painful as a ct scan but the wait is long. It takes about 20 mins for the whole process.
You’re asked to lie down on a platform and as usual I don’t have much clothes on…laughs. They give you a pair of ear plugs because the scan is really noisy. They say its due to the whole magnetic force thing. Before you can even go for the scan they ask you if you are claustrophobic because the platform goes into a really narrow tunnel and you have to lie still there for about 20mins. The sounds that come from the machine are not too assuring. You know those sounds that computers makes when it encounters a fatal error……bleeeeep bleep bleeeeep ..yeah something like that…laughs!. There were times when I thought I was stuck in between a laser gun fight!!…weird man! That’s basically it…not injection no nothing. So it was not too bad yah.
Ill be going back to the doctors tomorrow to hear about the results go I guess.
Thanks for riding with a member of the Pink T-shirt Gang.
We want the world to know that you don’t need to be gay to wear pink!!
Ja Bless. Ride safe.
You’re asked to lie down on a platform and as usual I don’t have much clothes on…laughs. They give you a pair of ear plugs because the scan is really noisy. They say its due to the whole magnetic force thing. Before you can even go for the scan they ask you if you are claustrophobic because the platform goes into a really narrow tunnel and you have to lie still there for about 20mins. The sounds that come from the machine are not too assuring. You know those sounds that computers makes when it encounters a fatal error……bleeeeep bleep bleeeeep ..yeah something like that…laughs!. There were times when I thought I was stuck in between a laser gun fight!!…weird man! That’s basically it…not injection no nothing. So it was not too bad yah.
Ill be going back to the doctors tomorrow to hear about the results go I guess.
Thanks for riding with a member of the Pink T-shirt Gang.
We want the world to know that you don’t need to be gay to wear pink!!
Ja Bless. Ride safe.
heres a letter i wrote about my visit to the doctor on tuesday.
Thought I’d write you a lil something about my visit to the cancer center today.
The news I got today left me neither devastated or shattered. If I have not already told you…I have already dealt with the issue of life and death and am most comfortable with it. That was not meant to scare you or anything like that…if anything it should assure you about the great comfort we can seek in our faith and strength we can draw from it.
From the best of my knowledge and what I picked up from my oncologist. The tumor has neither shrunk or become bigger. Its so hard to say because the mass itself is an inconceivable shape. The parts that were smaller in the first scan are now bigger whiles the parts that were bigger in the first scan are now smaller. If the tumor has spread it has done so in a small way…it has in no way spread to any major organs, which is cool. I do have something else to worry about…its only suspected but comes as quite a concern. I complained about some back aches which go around my waist area. They suspect that the tumor might be pressing up against my spine….which in a worst case scenario could lead to paralysis of my legs and some other not good stuff….laughs!
I’ll be going for a MRI scan tomorrow. Seeing the doctor the next day and prob go to the hospital again on Friday for a check up on my wound site. Another week spent at the hospital,….*sign*. I hope the scan turns out negative…cause if there is something wrong then I have to be admitted and go for treatment. That’s about it actually…..
I truly believe the path I have walked so far has taught me that God allows certain things to happen for his greater will in our lives. I always look at the bigger pic…always! And God has blessed me with the strength that only he can give. Be encouraged!! And live your life to God’s fullest!
I guess I’ll just leave it at that…..
Do take care of yourself and have a good week ahead of you.
Lots of hugs and loads of love…
Kelvin d.
Thought I’d write you a lil something about my visit to the cancer center today.
The news I got today left me neither devastated or shattered. If I have not already told you…I have already dealt with the issue of life and death and am most comfortable with it. That was not meant to scare you or anything like that…if anything it should assure you about the great comfort we can seek in our faith and strength we can draw from it.
From the best of my knowledge and what I picked up from my oncologist. The tumor has neither shrunk or become bigger. Its so hard to say because the mass itself is an inconceivable shape. The parts that were smaller in the first scan are now bigger whiles the parts that were bigger in the first scan are now smaller. If the tumor has spread it has done so in a small way…it has in no way spread to any major organs, which is cool. I do have something else to worry about…its only suspected but comes as quite a concern. I complained about some back aches which go around my waist area. They suspect that the tumor might be pressing up against my spine….which in a worst case scenario could lead to paralysis of my legs and some other not good stuff….laughs!
I’ll be going for a MRI scan tomorrow. Seeing the doctor the next day and prob go to the hospital again on Friday for a check up on my wound site. Another week spent at the hospital,….*sign*. I hope the scan turns out negative…cause if there is something wrong then I have to be admitted and go for treatment. That’s about it actually…..
I truly believe the path I have walked so far has taught me that God allows certain things to happen for his greater will in our lives. I always look at the bigger pic…always! And God has blessed me with the strength that only he can give. Be encouraged!! And live your life to God’s fullest!
I guess I’ll just leave it at that…..
Do take care of yourself and have a good week ahead of you.
Lots of hugs and loads of love…
Kelvin d.
Friday, August 22, 2003
having a really bad flu....should not have taken that bath yah!!!...spent most of my day at home resting.i did get up to pray for Jon because he said he was sitting for a real important paper....i hope you spent more time studying for that paper then i did praying for you man!...after all my restlessness had reached its apex i decided to get out of the house and went to watch a movie on my own. the League of Extrodinary Gentlemen...was a really good action flick.i knew that even before JON or anybody else could have told me that.....i say its a good action flick only because there was some kick ass action in it....sadly i was dissapointed by the story line. it was not even close to the graphic novel i had read....{ thanks for warning me about surely being dissapointed after reading the book then watching the movie Eugene!!} they did the exact same thing to the movie FRom Hell. both movies where the graphic novels were written by one of my fav writers alan moore,.....ahhhhhh screw that....have to get up early to go to the hospital again to see if the wound on my chest is gettin any better. by next week i hope to get my mind set on doing certain things....really need the focus. been too lazy and its not good...or maybe its just the cancer kickin in.....laughs!..hmmmm....finally had the chance to tell my neighbour my condition. we've been neighbours for a realy long time, thought today was a good time as any to tell him. just writing todays entry to keep you my ever faithful passenger updated on my life. hope i get inspired to write something better tomorrow. ride safe.be safe.ja bless.
Thursday, August 21, 2003
Its about 220am in the morning. Just had a really cold shower even though I’m having a slight flu…damn this humid weather!! Sitting in front of the computer i can’t help but feel the day went by totally wasted. My room I feel is like small rock in the middle of nowhere, whether time has been wasted or spent wisely i know I’ve spent a lot of time on my rock. My family never communicated on an affectionate level and I spent a good deal of time thinking about a lot of things in that room. Everything from how I was not going to get myself expelled from a school, if girls even took notice of me…and if they did, what was I doing wrong to not get their fullest attention, How was I ever going to be better then my siblings in everything….did I need friends or were they just a distraction?
Was I leading a good Christian lifestyle or did it even matter at that point in time? Was I good enough to be in the kingdom of heaven? Was I even going to make it life? Would the decisions I make now come to haunt me in my future? I spend my time here sometimes consoling myself on the fact that my time could have been better spent, better decisions could have been made and that I’m not a complete loser but then that small rock is also the place where I go to for encouragement that nobody else can give me, its helped to bring out the best in my imagination and inspired me to take up so many new challenges.
I’ve spent a lot of time thinking in that room but when I much younger I did not realize that God was there with me on my rock…sitting beside me like the best friend that he is and helping me to decide stuff about my life. Later on in my life someone would actually tell me about my lonely moments in my room and how God was always there for me. it was then that I decided also that I wanted to serve God and use the gifts that he had blessed me!!…amen for that!
Had to go the hospital once again to remove the stitches from chest…seems there’s slight problem with the wound. Glad the nurses at the cancer center were taking care of me, somehow or rather after being treated by other nurses and doctors at nuh. The caregivers at the cancer center know how to take care of me best. The ct scan that I had to go to on tues was not too good either. They did not set the plug on hand proper and later on during the scan when they had to inject the dye into me…it was forcing a huge elephant down a small pipe. I don’t complain much but this was not good. Well I guess pain does come with the treatment. I’ll know the results of the scan by next week. Like I was telling most people I just feel a sense of anticipation about the results. It’s a pretty big thing…to put it simply its just tells you how much longer you get to live. But as usual I’m taking it extremely casually….I’ve been feeling so much better these few weeks because my oncologist has been nice enough to lay me off the chemo treatment. I’ve been going out quite a bit. Went out with Char and Jon about 2 weeks back and it was so refreshing. Had so much fun with them laughing and just totally messing around [ thank you Char for giving me a chance to have a go at the neo print thingy] had time to hang out with Aaron and Euge….its been so long since we had the time to hang together. We went to watch Bad Boys the other day and it brought back memories about the gang and how we were so tight. Never the less I still have them my friends and brothers and they’re going to be around for life!! Spent some times online catching with some old friends too.
I think on our next ride together I’ll be writing about stuff I did when I was much younger. Its going to be wild so stick around yah. Ja bless. Be safe.
Was I leading a good Christian lifestyle or did it even matter at that point in time? Was I good enough to be in the kingdom of heaven? Was I even going to make it life? Would the decisions I make now come to haunt me in my future? I spend my time here sometimes consoling myself on the fact that my time could have been better spent, better decisions could have been made and that I’m not a complete loser but then that small rock is also the place where I go to for encouragement that nobody else can give me, its helped to bring out the best in my imagination and inspired me to take up so many new challenges.
I’ve spent a lot of time thinking in that room but when I much younger I did not realize that God was there with me on my rock…sitting beside me like the best friend that he is and helping me to decide stuff about my life. Later on in my life someone would actually tell me about my lonely moments in my room and how God was always there for me. it was then that I decided also that I wanted to serve God and use the gifts that he had blessed me!!…amen for that!
Had to go the hospital once again to remove the stitches from chest…seems there’s slight problem with the wound. Glad the nurses at the cancer center were taking care of me, somehow or rather after being treated by other nurses and doctors at nuh. The caregivers at the cancer center know how to take care of me best. The ct scan that I had to go to on tues was not too good either. They did not set the plug on hand proper and later on during the scan when they had to inject the dye into me…it was forcing a huge elephant down a small pipe. I don’t complain much but this was not good. Well I guess pain does come with the treatment. I’ll know the results of the scan by next week. Like I was telling most people I just feel a sense of anticipation about the results. It’s a pretty big thing…to put it simply its just tells you how much longer you get to live. But as usual I’m taking it extremely casually….I’ve been feeling so much better these few weeks because my oncologist has been nice enough to lay me off the chemo treatment. I’ve been going out quite a bit. Went out with Char and Jon about 2 weeks back and it was so refreshing. Had so much fun with them laughing and just totally messing around [ thank you Char for giving me a chance to have a go at the neo print thingy] had time to hang out with Aaron and Euge….its been so long since we had the time to hang together. We went to watch Bad Boys the other day and it brought back memories about the gang and how we were so tight. Never the less I still have them my friends and brothers and they’re going to be around for life!! Spent some times online catching with some old friends too.
I think on our next ride together I’ll be writing about stuff I did when I was much younger. Its going to be wild so stick around yah. Ja bless. Be safe.
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
testing one two....testing one two....test test test.
